It's hard to be happy, when everything comes at a price. When you have to push yourself to get up everyday. What a chore, to convince yourself that you're acknowledged in some way. What a joke. The storm is coming. With it, remorse and more sadness. A lot more emptiness and ache.

In my mind, I still belong back home. My heart hasn't left. And it feels like I can open the door and I will be there again. Someday. Someday.

Bakit ganun? Palagi na lang, kapag masaya na ako, o akala ko masaya na ako, pinaluluhod ako ulit sa putik. Bakit? Masama ba akong tao? Hindi ba't mas magandang hinaharap ang nararapat sa akin?
Minsan lang, gusto kong makahinga.

And I thought it was a happy day. I came home with such happiness and a sense of calm. And then the wave washed over me.

Now, I feel how short life is, how counted the days, how borrowed our time is on this earth. The many miracles we experience is something we take for granted.

The reality crashed me back down with a thud. I wish it weren't here at all. I wish this hadn't happened.

But life must go on. Life will march on by so very quickly, leaving us chasing after it, winded and tired.

But our faith keeps us on. Our love is there to move us forward. It's the only thing we have.

The end of a life. The beginning of another. Just another page to turn. Just another path to tread. For the future shining brightly, somewhere, as yet unfathomable. Somewhere still out of reach.

Chapter 9, after 8 months of waiting.

( Swords and Promises 9 )

When your future is staring at your face, it makes you cower and run. And yet, it's what you've been waiting for. Or convinced yourself you wanted. But, this is where you are meant to be. This is where you belong, finally. Even after all the heartache.

Oh my goodness!
This feeling is weird...yet totally welcome!
I just got my first interview schedule today! At Brookdale University Hospital too! Gasp!
This is one of those rare times wherein you're happy that it has happened, and yet scared that it did actually happen. Panic has resurfaced.
I just wish it will pull through quite well. I'm so happy anyway that it's in the New York area.
Like what my sister put on her computer: Just keep swimming...just keep swimming...

So I tried to use watercolor. Tell me what you think. ^_^

meowchan82.deviantart.com/art/Angel-Zoro-x-Tashigi-97644610

Wow. Another chapter out!
This is incredible. I was able to do it!
This chapter is like a transition chapter. Time for the conflict and angst to push through. Really, the pairing of Zoro and Tashigi is nothing without the angst. It was built upon it!
I'm sure a lot of people would find it not fun to read, but it is necessary and, yes, I love drama!
With my years of watching telenovelas (Filipino, American, Mexican, Japanese, Taiwanese, Korean...name it, I've watched it), it's just natural to write with OTT dramatic flair. Hehe.

Chapter 7:www.fanfiction.net/s/4265187/7/Swords_and_Promises

I'm just so happy that I was able to put out Chapter 6 of my fanfic "Swords and Promises"! Took a lot of slaving away on my computer to get it out. And at this time in my life, I asked myself if I really should be doing this. But I owe it to my readers, and to myself as well. 
Here is the link to the story:  http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4265187/1/Swords_and_Promises